I Do Know Things Really Began To Spin Out Of Control After My First Sex DreamIt All Started With A Dream Nothing Exceptional, Just A Typical Fantasy About A Boy, The Kind Of Dream That Most Teen Girls Experience But Pattyn Von Stratten Is Not Like Most Teen Girls Raised In A Religious Yet Abusive Family, A Simple Dream May Not Be Exactly A Sin, But It Could Be The First Step Toward Hell And Eternal DamnationThis Dream Is A First Step For Pattyn But Is It To Hell Or To A Better Life For The First Time Pattyn Starts Asking Questions Questions Seemingly Without Answers About God, A Woman S Role, Sex, Love Mostly Love What Is It Where Is It Will She Ever Experience It Is She Deserving Of It It S With A Real Boy That Pattyn Gets Into Real Trouble After Pattyn S Father Catches Her In A Compromising Position, Events Spiral Out Of Control Until Pattyn Ends Up Suspended From School And Sent To Live With An Aunt She Doesn T KnowPattyn Is Supposed To Find Salvation And Redemption During Her Exile To The Wilds Of Rural Nevada Yet What She Finds Instead Is Love And Acceptance And For The First Time She Feels Worthy Of Both Until She Realizes Her Old Demons Will Not Let Her Go Pattyn Begins Down A Path That Will Lead Her To A Hell A Hell That May Not Be The One She Learned About In Sacrament Meetings, But It Is Hell All The SameIn This Riveting And Masterful Novel Told In Verse, Ellen Hopkins Takes Readers On An Emotional Roller Coaster Ride From The Highs Of True Love To The Lows Of Abuse, Pattyn S Story Will Have Readers Engrossed Until The Very Last Word Whoa No words.
I ve discovered Ellen Hopkins.
S This is my favorite quote for the book God is love, she said And He respects love, whether it s between a parent and a child, a man and a woman, or friends I don t think He cares about religion one little bit Live your life right, Pattyn Love with all your heart Don t hurt others, and help those in need That s all you need to know And don t worry about Heaven If it exists, you ll be welcome.
This book was absolutely AMAZING I think I will have a hard time reviewing how I felt about this bookAGHHH STILL SO GOOD THE SECOND TIME.
5 Stars This 531 page book is written entirely in poems, some simple verse, some experiments with form Pattyn Von Stratten is a repressed 17 year old who has been raised by an alcoholic, abusive father and an overwhelmed mother Pattyn s life consists of taking care of her six younger sisters and learning to be a good Mormon girl But, when the school librarian feeds her love of reading, she starts to realize that there is to life than the sexist society that her bishop encourages After Pattyn rebels against her family s and church s rules, her father sends her to live with his estranged sister Her Aunt J, the wilds of Nevada, and the handsome neighbor, Ethan, help Pattyn learn to love herself and find a family filled with forever love But, when the summer comes to an end, Ethan has to return to college and Pattyn returns to find a new baby brother and her sisters living in fear of their father Pattyn tries to finish the school year, but a surprise forces her to try to run away and causes the death of a loved one The final chapter shows Pattyn vowing revenge and then abruptly ends While Hopkins does a fantastic job of describing the reluctant Pattyn falling in love with the iconic Ethan, and creates a fantastic mother figure in tough, old Aunt J, the foreboding bits of foreshadowing that she drops every few chapters continually takes the reader out of the present and gives away the ending far too early And the ending is not satisfying at all After Aunt J and Ethan teach her the power of love and after everything she has learned along her journey, at the end of the book she considers something completely out of character After investing hundreds of pages learning to care for Pattyn, the reader is left with nothing, just a hint at what she might choose to do.
comI m am just in pain from this book This is the first I have read of this author s work, but it will not be the last I loved and hated this book so much I hated the way Pattyn was treated by her alcoholic father and their community They were Mormons and they wanted all women to do as their husband says and didn t care if the wife was beaten It s whatever the husband decides There is a lot to it, but I m not going into all of it Pattyn started having dreams about boys She had all of these thoughts about life She wanted to know things She was becoming a rebel, at least in the eyes of her family and community SPOILERS Pattyn s dad finds out she had been hanging outmaking out with a boy and drinking, he decides to keep her in her room accept for school Pattyn finds out the guy she was messing around with was just using her, thank God she didn t go all the way she thinks, but she was so enraged that he dumped her so easy that she threw her bookbag through a window at school Things continue to escalate when he finds out he is with another girl, who she decides to punch in the face and break her nose Well after those escapades cost her dad 1500 to pay for he had enough of Pattyn She wouldn t be a good little Morman girl so he ships her off to his sisters farm in Nevada Aunt J s house was just about 2 hours away There were things Pattyn s father did to Aunt J when they were teens that made them become estranged AND NO, NOT THAT But let me tell you that Pattyn had the time of her life with Aunt J I quickly fell in love with this woman She was so kind to Pattyn She taught her how to drive, she couldn t believe she was almost 17 and didn t know how to drive She taught her to ride horses and help her bring in the Longhorn Cattle on the ranch The BEST thing Aunt J taught Pattyn was to love and be loved Pattyn never had anyone in her family tell her she loved her and showed her like Aunt J Pattyn felt her mother was just a brood mare that was there to pop out kids until she had a boy She had 9 girls that included Pattyn and then she got pregnant finally with a boy when Pattyn went to stay the summer with Aunt J Pattyn fell in love with the neighbor boy named Ethan He was so sweet and I loved him too Ethan lived with his dad on their ranch down from Aunt J s ranch Aunt J went all out for Pattyn s 17th bday She took her shopping and bought her tons of stuff Pattyn was beside herself And she only got a card from one of her sisters from home Her parents didn t call They were just jerks Ethan got her a nice gift too I won t give out any spoilers at this point because it soon becomes too real and too sad I think it s something you the reader should find out for yourself The only thing I have left to say is I knew what was coming just not that bad This review has attracted some attention and discussion and caused some misunderstandings I have edited it to be objective.
Please humor me as I soliloquize about a side issue instead of writing a review although really it doesn t matter whether you care to humor me or not I m going to say my say just the same Isn t the internet wonderful MWA HA HA HA Oh, the rush of unchecked powerCrankhappened to pass briefly through my hands on its way to some library patron, and I gave it a quick glance over The free verse writing was different from anything I d ever considered as a form of novelization, but I was caught by the easy flow of it WhenBurnedcame to my attention, I decided to take a closer look.
If I d considered what to expect, judging from the summary, here s the story I thought I was getting Girl is confused and confined by her family s religion Girl has a fit of teen aged rebellion Girl is sent to live with crazy, madcap cousins and wise, tender aunt and uncle on a smelly farm in the middle of nowhere Girl learns about work, sacrifice, love and the essence of true religion, and finds peace with herself and the world Hooray.
Rather a naive expectation, I suppose now in hindsight, but I really didn t think too hard beforehand just grabbed it and ran with it, so to speak Even if I had, I would still not expected what I got.
I don t know why Mrs Hopkins chose to set her book among people of my faith, but I find it hard to believe that she knows many Mormons personally, and I question her sources on doctrine Some of her representations were amusing, some frustrating I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, generally known as Mormon, and I think it s safe to say that I have an insider s perspective she does not So I would like to set the record straight on some doctrinal issues and present a different picture of Mormon life.
The most frustrating misrepresentation was her view of the woman s role I know there are some branch off Mormon sects Not the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints , that have different takes on that subject I don t know much about these other churches, so I don t know how well the Mormonism ofBurnedparallels them, but I do know she was representing the mainstream LDS church I m not sure she is aware of the differences In any case, LDS women are not treated as inferior to men Our church leaders would never condone a man keeping his wife in check in the manner that Pattyn s father did According to our official church Proclamation on the family, Husband and wife have a solemn responsibility to love and care for each other and for their childrenfathers are to preside over their families in love and righteousness and are responsible to provide the necessities of life and protection for their families Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their childrenIn these sacred responsibilities, mothers and fathers are obligated to help one another as equal partnersmy italicsWe warn that individuals who violate covenants of chastity, who abuse spouse or offspring, or who fail to fulfill family responsibilities will one day stand accountable before God.
once again, my italics Men are specifically directed not to use their priesthood to exercise dominion over anyone, and women have as important a role as men Young men and young women are all encouraged and even urged to receive some form of higher education My mother has a four year degree in elementary education, which she used as a teacher before I came along and later used to homeschool me and my sister for quite some time Now that her children are growing up she is trying to get a degree in interior design from home She does not work outside the home, but she takes joy in the work of raising her six children and works easily as hard as my dad does She most certainly does not consider herself an oppressed wife My dad loves her as she loves him and will far sooner tolerate one of his children talking back to him than to his wife By the way, the central goal of our religion is to bind husbands, wives and their children as families eternally forever love , I think Mrs Hopkins calls it The bishop of my ward is a warm, humble, compassionate man He would not judge me harshly or berate me if I came to him for counsel, would certainly not behave as the fictional Bishop Crandall did, and my only qualm in going to him would be the same shame and fear of disappointing him that I would feel in going to my father I have heard a story or two of bishops that are not this way I m just providing a counter example I am not trying to claim that we don t have families with abuse in them, or problems with gossip or judging or alcoholism If I did, it would be ridiculous not to call me out on that But I think the blame for that is better laid at the door of human nature than the precepts of our church The commandments of God, which we hold sacred, point toward happy, healthy and eternal family relationships and individuals, if faithfully adhered to, but every family has its problems As we say the Church is not a rest home for the recently perfected.
And this was only briefly mentioned, but Pattyn does say in the narration, True, but Jesus had little to do with LDS doctrine Here again, I must protest The church is named for him, and we believe that he founded it.
The Book of Mormon is subtitled Another testament of Jesus Christ Our whole church is centered around Jesus Christ and his Atonement Ask any Primary kid what they learn about in class including my four year old sister, who has gone around singing, Did Jesus Really Live Again nonstop for a week till our ears have bled And we talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we prophesy of Christ, and we write according to our prophecies, that our children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their sins 2 Nephi 25 26The other aspects were amusing than upsetting For instance, not only do we not make all our clothes at home, at least in my family, but even if we had time, material and patterns are so expensive that it is much cheaper these days to buy clothes, except in the case of prom dresses My mom s sewing projects are the exception rather than the rule.
That business about not getting a driver s license If your husband wants you to know how to drive he can teach you Puh lease I m not even going to rant about that.
And the forbidden Tolkien and J D Salinger and Kipling Give me a break I ate LOTR, Jane Austen, J.
K Rowling, Madeleine L Engle out of a baby food jar with a spoon Figuratively speaking Mutual night is not three hours of droning testimony, and I don t think it is that in any LDS ward in the world First of all, it only lasts for an hour and a half, and if you could hear the yakking and giggling and carrying on on a Tuesday night, you would wonder how Mutual could possibly be church related It s a chance to come together and have fun in a safe, accepting setting, make lasting friendships, and learn new things And who says you can t be drawing closer to God when you re having fun Last but not least, shame on me if I don t put in a word for my good Mormon boys Trevor , honestly The regular guys are Ethan, Derek, Justin, Brian, and then the good Mormon boy is Trevor That is deliberate, disgusting stereotyping And my apologies to all you Trevors out there It s not your fault that your parents are vicious and cruel For the most part they are great guys, certainly they treat us respectfully and not as inferior and they are not all goofy, although I could mention one or two D If you re reading this, you know who you are But honestly, the teachings of the gospel and the responsibilities of the priesthood not to mention the intensive Boy Scout program are the secret behind the finest young men I have ever associated with In any case, Mrs Hopkins description of them was completely undeserved Oh, and kudos to Jeff Gottesfeld for taking the time to defend a religion not his own from inaccurate representation As for a real review Some of the poetry is good, very angsty and very like a teenager I was hoping Pattyn would find peace with her Aunt J and make her own way in the world Instead she makes one foolish mistake after another, founds her self worth in a brief romance with a guy a very nice, hot guy, but she hardly knows, and after everything that Aunt J taught her about love and living, the end is nothing but despair it didn t fit, it seemed like Mrs Hopkins wrote the end just to be different and shocking, rather than writing from her heart If the message was that Pattyn couldn t possibly find her way to a better life because of the circumstances she was born in, I d say that s a real bummer of a message, is NOT true and not helpful or hopeful for girls in a similar plight.
Firstly, I didn t realise it was in verse form and when it arrived I was a bit reluctant to begin seeing as my past experiences with novels in verse are Dante s Inferno and Paradise Lost Must I say any But I went against my initial instinct and found that I loved the way the style just flowed, I read page after page and suddenly realised I d devoured half the book in less than an hour this is a book with nearly 600 pages The story wasn t lost in the poetry and, if anything, it only served to make the story effective.
The basic plot is that of a strictly religious mormon family, the father is a violent drunk and the mother takes the beatings and verbal abuse simply because she is a woman and her husband is in charge of her Yeah, seriously My feminist stomach clenched with anger at that one Especially when Brother Crandell I think I don t have the book to hand told Pattyn that the only way she could be redeemed for being born female is to fulfill God s wishes and have lots of babies because that s a woman s role This is the kind of book that makes you want to tear your hair out with frustration and violently maim several of the characters As a woman, I felt the indignity and anger with her I know that not all Mormons believe that women are useless without men and this is not the typical situation, but it does happen in extreme cases Not in some other time, a couple of centuries ago, but right now The plot takes a rebellious Pattyn, fuelled by teenage hormones, out of this strict, religious world She is sent to live with her Aunt and finds how different life can be when a relationship is based on love, not fear But good things can t last forever and eventually her past starts calling her back I won t spoil the ending, but know this Burned made me cry, made me angry, made me curious it is a book I know I ll never forget.